About Face

You held me off,
now you pull me close.
You said one thing,
now you want another.

How should I react?
What shall I do?
How can I really know
What you are up to?

It is one thing
to change your mind.
Did you have to drive
me away to do it?

I'm hurting now,
my doubts have risen.
Do I trust you enough
to risk pain again?

I can't promise
I'll be here forever.
I don't even know if I
want to see you today.

You said you couldn't
live with our differences.
Now you say
you can.

Is it just because
you're lonely again?
Too hard to find
somebody else?

We know that we
both love each other.
It's not enough reason
for me right now.

I just need time
to heal my wounds.
Until that time,
it'll hurt to see you.

I can't accept your offer
if I don't know what I want.
I wasn't sure before
all of this,
if I could marry you.

My resolve has weakened
further now.
In your absence,
the outlook hasn't improved.

Lindsey Milton 1997